Thursday, September 3, 2009

Better Than Counting Sheep

While writing in my journal about how lucky I am, even though I don't always remember that, I decided that it would be nice to list some of my blessings. This is by no means all of them, just some that jump out at me..

1) I have a close family. At times I wish we didn't live so close, or were so intertwined in each other's lives, but deep down I am glad that we are how we are. We know each other, we can tell how each other is feeling by how they sound. We get on each other's nerves, but that doesn't distance us. My family is always there for me, helping me when I need it by driving me to the emergency clinic, going to doctors with me when I'm freaking out, letting me vent my frustrations, and always encouraging me. When I was younger, I couldn't wait to grow up and move away to a busier city with so much to do, but now I can't imagine living any further than 15 minutes away from them.

2) While I don't have a lot of friends, the ones I do have are the best in the world. They never make me feel like a bad friend if I have to cancel plans, they cheer me up when I'm having a bad day. They tell me jokes, give me advice when I need it. They are always there with a shoulder to cry on if I need it. And we have so much fun together, even if all we are doing is hanging out.

3) I have a job that I don't hate. I've been the girl who had a job that sucked the life outta her. And it was awful. I would wake every morning and just cry about having to go to work. I would think of things I could do to get out of going to work, bad things, things that no sane person should be thinking. But then after six years I found a new job. And while its still a job, I don't hate it, and that makes life a lot easier. Everyone who has a job in todays economy should be grateful.

4) I married the love of my life. Honestly, after giving all of myself to the wrong guy, I didn't think that I'd find someone perfect for me. And its probably a good thing that he didn't show up before he did, or I wouldn't have been open to letting my feelings flourish like they should. I was shut off, afraid of getting trampled like I had before. When he did show up, I tried to fight my feelings, but they wouldn't be denied. After we moved in together I knew I would marry him, and I did, almost a year ago.

5) Because I got so sick when I was in high school, and lost one of my ovaries, I'm more aware of what my body should feel like, so when something is wrong, I know almost right away. And that is a blessing, I won't be one of those people that finds out something is wrong too late (hopefully..)

6) Strange as it sounds, I have a great support group on Twitter. My "migraine peeps" and "spoonie" friends. They understand what I'm going through with my migraines, they know the pain and the fear and the frustration. And they know the happiness I feel on the days where I am feeling good. Its amazing to have the support, especially from people I don't know.

I am a lucky girl.

What are some of your blessings?

Sent on the Now Network� from my Sprint® BlackBerry

1 comment:

  1. Awesome post!

    Hm. Some of mine would be...
    1) My family - aside from being wonderful to each other, they all are incredibly loving and giving to anyone, and I couldn't imagine life without them.

    2) My cat - sounds silly, but since I'm single, he often provides the only real contact I get. I love burying my face in his fur after a bad day.

    3) Music - very few things make life better for me than singing or playing piano or guitar. I am so thankful that I can have that release sometimes.


You read it, you might as well comment right! And honestly, I love comments. They get sent directly to my email, which I of course get on my phone because I am addicted to your comments.