You were our first miracle. You showed up at just the right time, my hope was on its last leg. We tried for 2 1/2 years to bring you to life.
You were conceived around mid to late February with the help of Femara. On a whim, I came home and took a pregnancy test on March 10th. I was almost a week late but didn't think there was a wonderful reason behind it. Then I saw the second pink line, your first picture. I took five more tests at home over the next few days, all of them telling me the same thing: you, our miracle, were here. I visited my family doctor and he confirmed it. You were real. I was overjoyed.
I called your Daddy, and he was thrilled. Your aunts and uncles and grandparents were all so excited and happy. Your Grandmommy bought you your first toy, a wooden ring stacker made by FAO Schwarz. She knew you'd have my sense of style and appreciation for old fashioned things.
Your Daddy and I started making plans. We were going to move to a bigger place where you'd have enough room to grow and play, I started researching schools, picking out suitable names. We told all our friends that you were finally here. Everyone was so happy and excited to get to know you. I was floating on air.
We went to the doctor on March 29th hoping to get a little picture of you. Unfortunately, we didn't get to see you hanging out in there. We saw your home, the little gestational sac, but the doctor said it was probably just a little too early to see you.
I wish that was true, my miracle. Sadly, after some blood work, we learned that it just wasn't your time to be with us. You belonged back in heaven with God. It seems very fitting since I know without a doubt that is where you came from. My Angel, I want you to know that the 22 days that I got to spend with you were pure joy. I'm heartbroken that I only got 22 days, but I know how blessed I was to get any days at all. I want you to know that you have changed me for the better. I am mad that our time was cut short, but I don't blame anyone. You are the best gift I have ever received, you gave me so much. You brought back my hope, you taught me what real joy is, and you made me a mom.
Thank you, and I love you always.
Mommy
